ITS MY GODDAMN BLOG.

2009-06-25T12:49:00.001-07:00

i am having mixed feelings about everything! :( im starting to miss home and everyone already! i havent even left yet and im already feeling like shit. how am i going to cope like this? =( right when im starting to feel comfortable, i have to leave. life sucks. people come and go. well, in my case, im the one whos going. but yeah. it sucks cause whatever im feeling now, sucks. past seven months ive met some new friends and got closer to my old friends. i did so much bonding session (believe it or not) considering that i had about seven months of holiday. -_- i had so much fun and i have to say im one hell of a lucky bitch cause i have so many great friends around me. i mean REALLY great friends. they help me through everything. they made everything better when things fucked up. i have to admit, im more matured now (yerrsehh HAHA :P) after what ive been through this year (WOAHH -_-). not that im trying to brag, but you have to trust me on this, i've learned something OK. and frankly, ive changed... and im a lot nicer now. :P

but anyways, what im trying to say is... im gonne have to start all over again... and i hate the idea of it. sigh. nothing will beat what ive already have. :(

2009-06-15T11:57:00.000-07:00

i think i want to pimp my blog... but i cant seem to be bothered to YET. har. i've been trying to make it look neat but i've failed terribly, as you can see. HEHE. so i'm considering whether to remove my previous posts in order to make my blog looks neat. plus, im also deciding whether i should change the address of this blog as the current one sounds GAY (it was a random pick and i used to like its gayness. lol.) and i had enough of it already due to the amounts of letters it has on it. you know, i tend to put an 'S' behind the ball. you get it?? =.= lol. i mean, its supposed to be singular... right?? if im not mistaken that is. hahhaha! SEE! thats what im talking about!!! i dont even remember the address! lol.

anyways, moving on, i dont actually know when im going to change the address etc. lol. i feel bad about changing it cause ive done that one too many times. -_- i used to like my notchloe blog. it was a lot better than this one as it wasn't as DULL. however, i had to change it cause i had a teacher that stalks at my ex school. :S he was some weird guy. no kidding! @.@ so yeah... i think its best for me to change the address or something soon to avoid myself from being monitored by some teacher. =.= that'd be the last thing i want to happen. hahha. true kan?

2009-06-08T13:51:00.000-07:00

"dont judge me cause of my last mistake. people change. im nothing like you and i dont want to be anything like you. i know what im capable of and i know what im doing. so please, stop pestering. cause no one is listening. you were never there anyways. you never cared so why now? sometimes i really think how others are so lucky to have what they have."

... yeah, stinks. everything is going downhill since... i dont even know how to put it. i hate this. things arent supposed to be like this. it stinks too much. :(

2009-06-07T14:20:00.000-07:00

hah! sorry for the absence. ive been neglecting the blog for quite some time now. ive been too busy doing nothing haha. been relaxing too much and my mum isnt happy about it. cant wait to go back to school and have something to do. my brain cells are starting to die already. T.T

anyways, enough said. its late and i just finished uploading pictures on fb. so till next time. x

2009-04-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

i have never drank as much water as i just did since Sunday (the day i was "admitted" to my own house) in my whole entire life! as some of you may already know, ive been sick since sunday (actually, i was already sick since wednesday, but my body only decided to give in on sunday! LOL.) and i havent been out since then! haha and believe it or not, i havent been "mo-mok-ing" too people. i havent been since i was at home and sick!!! im actually deciding to QUIT for good! :D ok ok, i think ive been coming with too many suprises, i need to slow down a bit in case some of you might experience a heart attack! hahaha. cause seriously, i mean... who are we kidding right???? but hey... give me a break. im serious OK? have a little faith in me people! im not that bad! :P hehe. so yeah, back to the reason why im not drinking that much water anymore... its because ITS MAKING MY FACE LOOK OVERLY BLOATED! urgh! my face looks horrible right now. -_- its not even funny. sigh. i dont know if they have a name for it in english but its called as "shui chong" or something like that in mandarin. i've never believed there were such thing before until i actually experienced it myself. haha. im actually looking for a remedy for my overly bloated looking face now online but i cant seem to interpret "shui chong" into english? couldnt be bothered to ask for its english word before since i never believe "shui chong" actually existed. :P

wait.. oh noo.. i just found this...

"i drink alot of water, because i did some research about if you work out and want to groww mass you should drink atleast a gallon of water/day for muscle to grow. i think this is making my face bloated if you look at only my face you would think that I am a fat 23 yr old. the rest of my body is slim and cut. i drink alchol and beer on the weenkends. If if i dont drink for a whole month or 2 my face is still bloated. could this be because of im drinking too much water?

Optional Information:
Male , Age: 23

Already Tried:
i tried cutting back on alchol and water. but when i dont drink to atleast a gallon a day , i feel dried up and so does my penis feel shriked ."

OMG DOES THAT MEAN IM GOING TO HAVE TO PERMANENTLY SETTLE DOWN WITH THIS OVERLY BLOATED LOOKING FACE????!!!!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeee i dont want!!! :( why is god punishing me so bad?? first the measles, now this new face... im so unlucky... sigh! but lets look at the bright side, ive actually archive many things after i got the measles. AM I RIGHT? hahaa. so i hope this face dilemma is only TEMPORARY! i wont be going out till next week so i hope everything gets back to normal after that! :D

ps: im definitely not out on friday night and so as saturday night too due to the measles. haha. ok fine, truth is im a bit paranoid about the swine flu all rite! lol. =.= my immune system is very weak at the moment! -_- but yeah heh. if i do get better i MIGHT go out during one of the nights. there'd be a function on sat in alfresco so we'll see! x

2009-04-23T02:52:00.000-07:00

2009 is a cruel year. life is against me and i think god is trying to punish me......... *BIG SIGH* so far i havent been lucky with anything. :( i really dont know what it is that i did so wrong! i just really wanna get away from this sad land and start new. and at the mean time, i need hui zhen my therapist!

2009-04-22T04:12:00.000-07:00

these past few days was a blast. i worked at the pc fair for 3 days and met awesome new friends. haha. it was a great way to spend my weekend. it turned out to be good, i had tons of fun. =) shall post up some pics of it if i manage to find them online. for the time being, you can drop by my facebook and view some of the pics from the pc fair there. haha. the rest of the pics are still MIA.
so tata for now. xx

2009-04-19T15:04:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's plan is to SLEEP, read, and play my games especially word challenge! LOL. its been too longgg...!!!

2009-04-13T13:34:00.000-07:00

remind me to cut my nails off first thing in the morning tmr before i break my contacts again. =.=

hate how my nails grow too fast.

and i terribly hate how its only april and at the same time also feeling nervous cause sarah and su yi will be leaving soon... dont like. :(

anyway, today was a bummer, i was home the whole day... AMAZINGNESS. +_+

2009-04-12T17:39:00.000-07:00

some people are completely mean...

:(

2009-04-08T13:09:00.000-07:00

it upsets me knowing that people are trying to make me miserable and make things difficult for me... i want my own space.

2009-04-07T14:16:00.000-07:00

its 5.16am now so im not sure if im going to be able to wake up early tomorrow after having an "intensive" kayaking and basketball session in the evening today. haha. Im actually thinking of playing badminton tomorrow... however, i doubt its going to happen due to extreme fatigue after today!
so yeah, today was a lot of fun. but i still can't believe i scored very badly with my three points for basketball! ahhaa. I KNOW IM BETTER WITH MY 3 POINTS THAN EVERYONE ELSE WHO WAS THERE JUST NOW OK! no doubt about that! lol. :P

ps: i just realised on how my blog looks lame so i will be posting up some pics soon...

2009-04-05T12:57:00.000-07:00

again, i am looking at my photos. but this time round... im looking at the ones i have on friendster. mannn... how i really miss those times. :( i had a lot of fun and very little needs (at least thats what i think... hahaha.). all in all, i was such a good girl. lol. i think my parents loved me more then. i can see the LOVE when i saw some photos of trips that i went to with them. i mean, they would bring me travelling with them even if its only for a short trip. which reminds me that they also let me go to s'pore (cb! ive just realised ive never taken any pics whenever i go to spore! *#*$&#@!*&!!@*!^%*@#!!!) alone to meet friends. and i was only what? 15 or 16?? woah, come to think of it, they reallyyy trusted me.
anyway, now, they won't even consider about bringing me anywhere with them. not even to the supermarket. =.= HOW SAD! so im predicting that... 2009 is going to be the worst year... since so far i havent gotten any luck from getting anything from them, not even a new hp. my dad thinks that my phone is FINE. MY FOOT! (should have asked my dad to get me a better one the last time round instead of choosing one that i think looked really cool cause of the size and the PINK it has on it! ITS ABOUT FUNCTION NOW CHLOE, FUNCTION!). =.= so im wondering... is it natural that your parents tend to unpemper you once you get older?? and expect you to earn everything and not to rely on them most of the times?? =\ if yes, then i dont want to grow up!

2009-04-05T09:25:00.000-07:00

there're too many dramas going on at the moment and im enjoying them to the MAX. LOL. well, not ALL lah to be exact but most of them... especially last night's episode! i dont even know how to put it in words haha. i shall update next time when i'm free.

x for now.

<3

2009-03-31T13:04:00.001-07:00

I've APPARENTLY committed a SIN by asking SARAH-JUNE WONG to sleep on the mattress on the floor in MY ROOM! after knowing her for years, i just found out that she has an "issue" about sleeping on the FLOOR!! WTF IS WRONG WITH HER! she is ssooooooooooooooooooo making me hysterical!! LOL!!! i asked her to sleep on the floor tonight just because i thought it wasnt convenient for her to sleep on the bed with me since i was using my laptop while it was attached to the adapter! and you know, MY GOD, THIS GIRL IS SOOOOOO AMAZING IM TELLING YOU!!! SHE GAVE ME A HARD TIME JUST BECAUSE I ASKED HER TO SLEEP ON THE MATTRESS! anyways, getting back to the topic... after i asked her to sleep on the mattress she got so mad and made a HUGE FUSS ABOUT IT and decided to SULK. so yeah, as predicted, she went out of the room. i thought she was going to watch tv so i decided to check on her 15 mins later. and guess what???? I GUESSED WRONG! I FOUND OUT THAT SHE HAD LOCKED HERSELF OUT OF THE HOUSE AND WAS SITTING AT THE PATIO WHEN I WENT TO CHECK ON HER!!!! URGH!!! ANNOYING! .... so after making a huge effort on persuading her and compromising with her, i decided that the only way to make her come in the house was to let her sleep on MY BED and me having to sleeping ON THE MATTRESS!!!!

... and it worked. =.=

and also its making me hysterical cause i dont know why shes making a BIG DEAL OUT OF IT!!!!!!

2009-03-29T12:07:00.000-07:00

again, its late. and im still awake as usual, such a bat i am. im on a mission to live healthily... starting from monday, which is actually today! the plan is to sleep early, wake up early and linger around the house... sounds easy but without selfcontrol its an impossible task. i will try not to sabotage the plan. haha and see how long that'll last. no suprises if i dont follow the plan. -_- i'll be back here again talking about it and i highly believe im going to repeat what i just said on my first few lines above. how predictable. lol. i hope i'll be getting supports from my friends and also learn how to resist temptations!

at the mean time, life is tough. i've been getting a lot of pressures from my parents especially my mum who have been nagging me non stop. im still confused about what i want to do and where i wanna go. the longer i stay around the more i dont mind staying here. its mainly because of my friends and family being here and not to mention the familiarity too. but in a way i also wanna get away due to certain reasons. one of the reasons is because i need a new enviroment if i really wanna study. there are too much distractions around here, its not even funny. but anyways, enough said about school otherwise i'll get stressed out again. so apart from that... i just cut my eyes yesterday (what a random thing to talk about =.=). like as in cut my eye ball with my nail. so i've got this red spot on my sclera. like a blood clot kinda thing. dont know how long its going to be like that. :( i hope its not permenant. i havent been wearing one side of my contact lense so ive pretty much been blind over the weekend. i hope not wearing my contact lense helps on the recovery! thats if it recovers... T.T EHHH! NO NO! TOUCH WOOD! IT WILL RECOVER!!! =.= hopefully i didnt jinx it. hahha.

anyways, so far my last weekend havent been the best for me. saturday night was... boring... so as friday night due to certain reasons. oh wells, there're still many weekends to come so no worries. other than that, the past weeks have been okay. a lot of drama but thats the thrill of it so im not complaining. so all in all its been okay. but im still yearning for better days. some days have made me realised on how much life stinks. i dont consider myself lucky anymore once i look at things as a whole. stinks but what to do right?

2009-03-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

at the moment... i find life is FULL OF SHIT. hating it to the max. im so stressed and depressed now. :( i wish there is a medicine for feeling like this! and i wish i was wiser at making choices. :( IM SCREWED... i hope i can fix this.

2009-03-20T13:54:00.000-07:00

i have a major c_ush (go figure! :P)... LOL.
paiseh, old story, so enough said! ahahaha. i feel so kindergarten now. T.T

2009-03-17T14:48:00.000-07:00

its five in the morning and im still awakeeee. @.@ just got home from a drinking session lol. fun nite. haha. sarahs bday is coming soon so we'll be doing some shit for her. hehheh. i can't believe its march already. time flies! :) starting to enjoy myself more and more... discovered a lot of entertainment in miri, its amazing. :D but i think i need to settle down a little. which means i have to manage my time properly... but i can't seem to figure out how to. =.= haha. i always have the "too free already, so go out lah!" mentality. lol. but then again, that doesn't appply to my mum. shes going ballistic cause i've been out almost everyday. :S actually... ive been going out since like... january till now. haha. nearly non stop lah. amazing rite. -_- lol. which reminds me about my result... i was quite amazed about it. haha. considering that i didn't study at all since form 4 till form 5 (especially form 5 that is), i managed to pass everything. =S so lucky i am! pheww! and you know what? i actually got a B for my history, which totally gave me a fright. lol. i only studied like a few hours before my exam starts. -.- so really, im not that bad lahh. haha. IF I STUDIED properly i could have aced everything. :P lol cheh. hahahhaha. what the hell am i talking about?? action banyak lah me. lol. trying to comfort myself. :P but then again! true also... hahaha! ya bah! i wasted my last year away. T.T i was too busy partying (to the extend where i went clubbing half way through spm to "release stress" la konon... =.=) and too busy about someone that time. =.= its a lesson though. never get into a relationship if you want a better future... everyone should know why. =.= i dont need to explain myself. haha. but seriously, no regrets. whatever happened, happened. you need to deal with your mistakes and learn from them. its tough but thats life! >.<

anyway! im done for now! nite. xxx

2009-02-28T13:34:00.000-08:00

its 5.35 in the morning and im still awake. looking at my old photos with my friends during school time. =( aww. miss miss. :( its not even funny. im starting to miss my school life except for the waking up bit. apart from that everything else was fine. haha. i miss sleeping in class etc. =.= lol. i have so many stories when it comes to my high school time. im not even kidding. hahhaa. school was fun i have to admit. so much memories. and looking at the pictures makes me feel so "home sick". :(

so right now, im starting to have issues with my weight. i cant seem to stop shrinking. like... i cant gain any weight. :( i dont know why. its been like this since i finished school. =\ im starting to get worried as my clothes dont fit me anymore, its scary. =\ whats wrong with me?? :(

2009-02-26T08:25:00.000-08:00

damnit. ive got nothing to do. haha. looking through everyones new photos on fb. ive no life. :P i got bored untilll.. cannot! haha. but i quite enjoy looking at pics. doesnt matter if they are new or old. i can just keep looking at them pointlessly. such a stalker i am. haha. :P thats what boredom does to you sometimes. hehhe. but anyways, so far so good. im entertained most of the times, so its all good. the holiday is treating me well, its amazing how you can make the best out of everything u have in miri. @.@ halleluyah! hehe. meanwhile, im pretty excited about whats going to happen next. ive got so much plans! =)

2009-02-26T04:42:00.000-08:00

latelyyyy, things have been great. =) am enjoying the company of my crazy friends. :P but then again micheal is leaving tomorrow. didnt get to spend much time with him. not going to see him for awhile after this. aww, im so going to miss him. :( but yeah, im going out with him later. so i burnt him a disc of my new playlist. the songs are soooo nice. <3<3 i love! :)

meanwhile! im going to brainstorm and make a list of things to do for the rest of my holidays. i is a busy woman ok! :P
x

feelings.

2009-02-18T06:20:00.001-08:00

now i feel so bored and tired at the same time, im starting to feel frustrated. i feel frustrated for being bored and having nothing to do. =.= so im still on my long ass holiday and im about to go insane. *yawn* ive been doing the same thing nearly everyday. haha. sleep late, wake up LATE, then go out for food, then lepak around town, go jalan jalan then go home again. after that, i rest for awhile then get changed and go out again. =.= haiyoo.. its really bad lah. what to do right? ive got too much time in my hands. haha. everyday want to enjoy only. it gets very addictive. haha. ive got too many friends around so i tend to get distracted a lot.

so recentlyyyy, ive been on a roller coaster ride. too much fun that i dont even remember anything. ive been forgetting too many things inculding important stuffs. ive been trying to recall but i cant even remember what things were like before. humm.. is that normal? or is it because im getting used to this? everything is happenning too fast but at the same time im catching up pretty well. haha. very impressive. but its kind of shocking that im changing too fast. i dont remember how i was before. i dont remember many things. a lot of things actually, and sometimes it makes me feel bad..? but most of the times (99 percent of times =\) i dont care. ok, thats one thing that havent changed. my "i dont care" attitude. i mean if i do care, im actually pretending. and seriously, im damn good at pretending. humm. which reminds me, im really weird. lol. oh wells. im bored. hahha. waiting for transport now. =) humm hummm. so what else ya? ummm.... oh! is it normal that i dont dwell? :S cause my friends tend to dwell on negativity, but i dont? it makes me feel like an outkast. -_- does that make me a bad person?? hahaha. come to think of it... nahh... dont think so. i just think its cause im a happy person. :) i like being happy and positive okay. hahah. bah k la. enough for now. LAZY ALREADY :P byeeeeeeeee xxxx

2008-12-02T03:51:00.000-08:00

okay.. might actually not be going to work in kl anymore. so im still looking around for other jobs now. someone working with my dad just passed away yesterday. its so sad. i just heard the news from my mum. so my dad has to replace his work for him so he'll be busy flying around. thus, hes giving up his apartment since hes not going to stay there much. sighhhh. i will make do of what i have now and look for other options. am actually thinking of teaching kids. as in kindergarten... any ideas?

2008-12-02T01:32:00.000-08:00

school is over for good.. but right now im way too free i haven't a clue what to do with my free time. good news is i will be going to kk next week. at least theres something for me to look forward to, kinda. a bit stressed out about the trip though, due to some reasons. one, its cause after the trip i'll be back in miri with nothing to do. so... yeah... i told myself not to be excited over anything cause the fun will end eventually and your gonne miss it after that. =/ i need to find a job in order to occupy my long break. im currently looking for jobs in kl. im still uncertain if i should go since i havent got any close friends there. but then again, its also the reason why i should go. i feel like getting away from everybody and having my own space, doing my own things. ahh.. ive so many plans for 2009.

but in the mean time.. i'll keep myself busy with sports, hangouts, catching up with friends and etc for december. ive got so many errands to run actually. theres a huge list in my head. =)

2008-10-29T05:31:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of school. i've finally gotten my time table for my exams. its not as packed as i thought it was gonne be, which is a relieve. if i manage to use my time wisely, i'm gonne be able to go through it without any problems. but im kinda have doubts about myself eventhough sarah had been convincing me that ive got the brains to study. which is very nice of her. but based on my ability right now... im not too sure. im too lazy. =( i managed to waste my last year of school and fucked everything. looking back, nearly all the time, i was able to get myself through everything without any hard work and get everything MY WAY. i got used to it and so i wasnt taking anything seriously. =/ which im regretting so badly. i got everything planned out in the beggining of the year but i guess something came in between and got me derailed. i was worrying about the wrong things. i wasted too much time on having fun. in fact, i had too much fun i got hooked. ive learned that time doesnt wait for no one. which leads me to make do of the time ive got left to study. oh wells, life's tough! what to do...

2008-09-29T04:00:00.000-07:00

ok i got this from a forwarded email and ive decided to post it up here.

IRONY of life more or less

Men:
1. All men are extremely busy.
2. Although they are so busy, they still have time for women.
3. Although they have time for women, they don't really care for them.
4. Although they don't really care for them, they always have one around.
5. Although they always have one around them, they always try their luck with others.

Women:
1. The most important thing for a woman is financial security.
2. Although this is so important, they still go out and buy expensive clothes and stuff.
3. Although they always buy expensive clothes, they never have something to wear.
4. Although they never have something to wear, they always dress beautifully.
5. Although they always dress beautifully, their clothes are always just 'an old rag'.
6. Although their clothes are always 'just an old rag', they still expect you to compliment them.
7. Although they expect you to compliment them, when you do, they don't believe you.

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THE GUY'S SECTION BUT NOT THE GIRL'S.

this is because:
1. yeah its true, they're "ALWAYS BUSY" doing "SOMETHING". i dont think they are busy though. normally they just PRETEND to be busy. women are the real BUSY ONES. well, like me for instance. :P IM ALWAYS BUSY. IM A BUSY WOMAN okayyyy.

2. yeah! they always have time for women cause they are always after something!

3. and yes! I TOTALLY AGREE WITH NUMBER 3!!!! its so ANNOYING. as if we are some kind of a DECO! HATE IT!!!

4. URGH!!! and number 4 too!!! its soooo TRUE! they do not care for women! they use women as if they are objects! they just like the idea of having a women beside them! TO SHOW THEIR STATUS OR WHATEVER IT IS. i dont understand GUYS!!! >.<

5. AND HATE TO ADMIT, BUT NUMBER FIVE IS DEFINITELY TRUE! ALL GUYS ARE LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUCH PIGS!

WARNING: GUYS ARE CRUEL BEAST!!! DON'T GET INVOLVE WITH ANY!!!

2008-09-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

the weekend has finally come to an end. it was a great one, as in really good fun. cause guess what? it was miss cynthia's and mr kenny's birthday bash (both on the same night and both party animals :P) meaning hardcore party time! :D and to top that all up, the boyfriend made it down to miri! so special thanks to him for making it down this time. =) but yeah, good things always comes to an end. and it sucks cause i miss the boyfriend a lot now! (i will kill you jason if you read this post out loud for me to hear on the phone! im SERIOUS!!!!!!!)

OK, thats it for now, im a bit blank already. lol. i had so much to say but i forgot what i was gonne say and it took me half an hour to come this far HAHA. i suppose im gonne have to update another day. so good bye for now! x

2008-07-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

im such an unhappy girl. dont like. :( need to focus already!!!

2008-06-25T00:45:00.000-07:00

hey, im back. im super bored, waiting for sarah to drive her obscene LAND CRUISER (LOL) to pick me and pessy up. man i really hate that car, i swear i can die sitting in that car during the peek hours. eh shes here already. i'll write more later. x

2008-06-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

this guy can really make me go crazy. unbelievable!

2008-06-01T13:31:00.000-07:00

im a bit of the crazy now. its 4.31am and im not sleepy yet. :S i think i is still the "jet lag" from clubbing. haha.
believe it or not i went out on a sunday night. lol. it wasnt too bad, nonetheless. :) we karaoke-ed the night away. haha. first it was dancing but when people started leaving we went back to the room and sang. wasnt in a sexy mood so didnt take any photos. lol. gay.
anyways, my holidays havent been really productive. all ive done so far is bumming around and spending money like theres no tomorrow. parents arent around so im pretty much on a tight budget. me and my poor soul. i shall starve (drama drama) till i fly and meet them on friday. heard from suzy my brothers moved to a new apartment. from the ghetto to some luxurious place with a gym and a pool? sounds rather fishy to me. lol. :P i cant wait to investigate. HAHA. im so mean rite.
but yeah... cant wait. hehe.

oh shit, i just remembered. i had a bad dream last night. i dreamt that i got zero for 4 of my subjects. which is impossible, so yeah, it was pretty fucked up. :S and speaking of which, i dont feel like going back to school when school reopens. haha. shittttt. all the exam papers and all. and my stupid result. so not looking forward to know. -_- i mean i didnt study at all for my last exam but yeah i still think i'll be able to score.. maybe not a lot... but A LITTLE WILL DO. haha.

... BUT ANYWAY, i've just decided that i should start studying by tomorrow and cut down on the outings. so yea, i suppose thats it for now... ima post somemore when im free. nighters! :) x

this is so lame. im bored. haha.

2008-05-25T23:42:00.000-07:00

su yi is back in sibuti already. oh, how i miss her. no more pessy (pearl elephant sim su yi) for me. how sad can life be? she has been sarahs substitute since sarah was gone for her bball tourney. :D but now that both of them are away... i havent much friends left to play with. :( so what am i to do with out you now pessy?

anyway, im left to do some brain storming... not much to choose from.

... still thinking... maybe i shall abduct her. haha. or maybe not.. shes a bit too heavy. lol. ah wells, i guess its only me and cynthia then. which isnt too bad! hehe. sarah will be back on friday. now, who cares about pessy? :P

hehe i was just kidding. i love u pessyyy. mwah!

2008-05-25T23:17:00.000-07:00

Love is like a game of chess: One false move and you're mated.

:(

2008-05-25T07:33:00.000-07:00

Im feeling very much emo now. i know rite, its not my thing. i havent felt this way for ages. i think its because im bored and the sad songs that are playing on my ipod. so yeah ive decided to make a post cause my ever-loving-boyfriend Jason Kuan isnt replying my message. so no one to talk to at this kinda hour... oh wells.. now that im blogging i dont really know what to write. and i dont actually know why im feeling this way. =_= i think its because im missing something... i cant wait to see you hunnyyy. i feel like shit now. HATE BEING EMOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! :'( i dont know if anyones reading this. well i hope not cause i sound rather gay. ha ha.

anyways, i shall make a list of random shits to distract myself..

1. DONT BE LAZY.
2. need to STUDY.
3. try not to go out too much. -_-
4. be more serious especially when people are talking.
5. try not to be too insensitive. ha ha.
6. be nice to everyone, eg sarah. lol.
7. stick to all the resolutions that have already been made.
8. think before act.
9. do something productive over the holidays.
10. be more considerate.
11. have to be more eco friendly.
12. ... i want a new pet. i miss harry. :(
13. ....

okay i ran out of things to write on my list. back to emo land i suppose. -_- lol. haiyaaaaaaa. how now? :( sarahs messaging me telling me how she won five big macs at mc donalds from this idontknowwhat mc d challenge. apparently its on the commercials. i mean the challenge thing is on the commercials, not sarah. haha. oh yeah and she had been telling me about how this cute guy had been messaging her these days. i doubt hes cute tho. i dont trust sarahs taste. :P and not to mention, which "cute" guy would go for her? :P KIDDING SARAH HAHA. AND OMG! I just had this obscene thought of sarah being pregnant! ITS SO SICK. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. IMAGINE SARAH IN THOSE PREGNANT WOMAN'S OUTFIT. EUWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!! lol! HAHAHA. YUCK!!!!!!! i dont think i can sleep tonight! HAHAHA. OH WAIT, EVEN BETTER! IMAGINE HOW HER BABY WILL LOOK LIKE! -----________------ okay best word to describe.. C-A-C-A-T. lol. SMALL EYES AND CROOKED LOOKING FACE (i dont know how lol). EUWWW! poor kid i might add. no plastic surgeon in this world can ever safe the kid's deformed face. hahaha. ok, enough enough. im being mean. lol i take it back! *touch wood* im not sticking to my resolution on being nice to her. EHEHE.

so yeappp as you can see, im not that depressed anymore. lol. FAST RIGHT? :D

wait...
... on second thought... i changed my mind. am still depressed. :(

2008-05-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

okay people. these are the pics from last night. my great grandma's 100th birthday. AMAZING ISNT IT? hehe. shes like old and healthy. love her to bits. so cute she looks like mickey mouse. no jokes! lol.

my mums yummy cooking. some kelabit menu.

my 100 year old tepu! :)

four generations. mum, me, great grandma and my grandma. :)

bday cakeee.

yummy foods.

abat.. and ubong's hand.

mummy, tepu aran and tepu ten.

mummy and her cookings haha.

mummy and tepu.

me and the bday girl hehe.

more foods.

chantelle and uncle peter.

2008-05-22T21:38:00.000-07:00

cathy's bday night.

preparing.

some sad photo of the fireworks. haha it was better than that.

heart shaped. bunga rite? haha.

wedding photo. -_- lol.

cynthia and i kepo.

againn.. hehe.

"pessy's" (pearl elephant sim su yi) first shisha puff.

cynthia.

sheonard's first puff... i managed to "unvirginized" her virgin lungs lol.

meee. the proud founder of the shisha place. :D

oh yeah~

2008-05-22T10:11:00.000-07:00

today was a blastttt.

1. i found a shisha place. :D
2. exams are over.
3. MEANING ITS HOLIDAY TIME. HEHEHE.
4. its "cathy's" birthday.. lol.

so yaaaaaaa i just got back from the beach. had this mid night thing for cathy's birthday. woah johnny not bad la... he prepared everything (with his friends help). he put on some fire works by the beach. and made this heart shaped fire thingy for cathy. haha. how corny is that? lol. but then again, it was not bad. haha. anyways, will post some photos of today if im free tomorrow. x

2008-05-22T02:42:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!

i have finally finished my excruciatinglypainfultwoweekslong exam! so MERDEKAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! :D HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAH! IM SO ON MY HOLIDAY MOOD ALREADY!!!!!! IM GOING THROUGH MY SUGAR RUSH PHASE NOW, AND IM SUPER HYPER!!!!!! I CAN RUN A MILE WITHOUT STOPPING HALF WAY! ..... heh, i take that back. =.= lol

su yi: you know its not yet spm, right?

me: ..........

me: WHO GIVES?! :D WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

2008-05-22T02:24:00.001-07:00

Rules:
You have to come up with 8 different points about your perfect guy/girl.
Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.

* Personal hygiene
person has to always be clean. i like nice breathe and i like clean nails!

* Smells nice
yeahhh, like jason. hehe.

* Loving and caring
like me... NOT. haha. im none of those, so must be more loving and caring compared to me. lol.

* Responsible
yeap.

* Brainy
cannot be smarter than me. :P so far i havent had a problem with that- jason's not so smart compared to me. :P

* Sporty
HELL YEAH. i like sporty guys. haha. they have nicer skin colour etc. oh and the guy must know how to swim cause guys who dont know how to swim, REALLY TURNS ME OFF. so the only solution is, dont come to the pool with me. lol. cause i SWIM.

* High EQ
yeah. must be able to tolerate my annoyance. but i think i have higher EQ compared to that certain someone. HAHA.

* Knows how to cook
of course laaaaaa. who do you expect to cook? im very certain that im not. lol.

Pass this on to:
no one in particular. so anyoneeee will do.

2008-05-22T02:04:00.000-07:00

DUDE! I JUST SAW THE MOST HORRIFYING VIDEO EVER! I SWEARRRR I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING THAT BRUTAL EVER (thats cause i've never watched anything horrifying apart from horror movies. -_-)! i guess almost everyone has seen it before on youtube. its the video where these people in china skin the animals alive. it made me sick. really sick. i watched the video for a few seconds and i had to ask my brother to close the window for me, i couldn't bare watching those poor animals being tortured. its really sad knowing that humans are so violent. god damn it, i dont understand these type of people. im really angry!

2008-05-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

oh my god, i find myself completely hilarious right now i swear. lol. i nearly had a heart attack after looking at this disgustingly scary looking picture on micheals display pic on msn!!!!!!!!!! i am sooo going to disown this computer. it feels completely polluted and unvirginized now. -_- so yeah ive got nothing to do now since i cant go back on msn just in case i see that picture again. im that serious. its really freaking me out. haha. =_=

siasat siasat ma come la. you think u detective meh? DIAO.

2008-05-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

OKAYYYY PEOPLE. this is my new blog. i'll be posting my shits here so yeah. bare with me. haha. but before i start, i'd like to tell you viewers that this blog only allows ppl that has no issues towards me and that this blog is not for everyone to read especially the ones who has no life AT ALL. i somewhat pity them for even being bothered to check my blog. :S i mean ITS MY BLOG. it has nothing to do with you and its none of your business.
oh, and let me rephrase that, ITS MY BLOG. so if you dont like it and you feel offended after reading this and that you think that im saying this to you, be my guest and leave this site "a.k.a" MY SITE.

heh. that just made me feel better. haha. i already stressed everything out so you guys should know the rule, YES? :P you have issues with whatever i post about or whatever= get lost. dont bother reading or looking at it. cause im not going to please anyone here. haha well, apart from my friends of course and mr J. :P

so today was pretty exhausting! i had my malay and chinese papers. oh my god, my chinese was shit. i swear lol. i didnt understand the topics as im not much of a chinese reader. didnt know how to read a lot of the words, so i had some patches here and there. had a lot of trouble trying to guess what everything means. lol. its really funny actually. it always comes to guessing when im doing my chinese papers. haha. can never completely understand any shit. but i mean its amazing how i can always pull it off. i guess it all comes from the brain. :P it means IM SMART. HAHAHA. ok fineeeee, i went overboard with the smart bit but im not taking it back. :D

actually im supposed to do my revision now but im still procrastinating. :S amazing rite? im sooo last minute. im even worse than sarah. haha. i guess im going to pull an all-nighter again tonight. =.= actually i was dozing off big time during my exams today. i was pinching myself and slapping my face and using my fingers to open my eyes just to stay awake. but yeah it didnt work out that well cause eventually i couldnt stand it anymore and so i fell asleep. lol. next thing you know i was dreaming and i was falling off somewhere in my dream and i woke up with a shock. the guy who sat next to me saw what happened and giggled. oh my god. i sound like im writing an essay now. lol. i blame it on the papers i had today! too much essays. haha. OH OH! speaking of which! you know what??? i did 500 plus words for my chinese essay. lol. ah bong didnt believe me at first so i explained how it was not impossible for me to write such a long ass essay because you know what i did? lol. lets sayy... umm... instead of saying "we", i went like "me and my mother". see how much difference that makes? lol. i mean if you keep repeating it over and over again it builds up and the next thing you know its more than the requirement for the amount of words to write. :D and if im passing my chinese (which i doubt i will), im going to laugh until i loose all my teeth. HAHA.

BUT ANYWAYS, ENOUGH SAID. haha more updates next time. :)